What I've Been Doing In my Spare Time

When you peel the layers of your skin back and look deep into your soul what do you see? I don’t expect most people to know this answer, but I’ve been peeling a lot the last few months. The more I peel the more I realize that I was really nothing like I thought I was. I’m not talking about in a physical sense. I’m talking about a deeper, spiritual, soul searching sense. And when I use the term soul searching I don’t mean it in the way most people perceive it.

I was talking to a friend today about the transitional period I’m going through. I’ve reached a point where everything that defined who I was in the past isn’t really important to me anymore. I didn’t have your average upbringing where you go to college and get a job. I received on the job training from the age of 18. College, at the time, wasn’t for me.

From there I started multiple company’s, overcame legal adversity, got involved in real estate, including investing in foreign countries, traveled the world with my fighters and friends and lived the life that I thought I always wanted to live.

Simply put I got caught up in what society has taught us to be a good life. I was listening to Nido Qubein speak the other day and he said "when we’re talking about success, we talk about the three F’s of success, Fans, Fame, Fortune.” He then speaks on how empty this idea or thought is. He goes on to speak about the three F’s of significance: Faith, Family, and Friends. And as he put it when you have this, what else do you really, really, really need?

This brought me to the thought about faith as I was explaining to my friend today. Faith implies that we believe in something that we don’t see. The bible says in Hebrews 11:1 that Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of which you do not yet see. But if God is all around us everyday then what is it that we don’t see. Is it because I have seen God that I don’t think I need faith? Or do I just know? Or is me just knowing really faith?

As I go into deeper meditations and peel back the layers I find myself asking the question “what are we really?” When I ask this question the idea that there is a God is never more evident. Not in the traditional religious way, but from a state that we are all coming from the same consciousness. If from the time we are children we are given a collection of thoughts from other people, and we grow up with more and more ideas from other places we are not really ourselves. We are just a collection of thoughts and ideas from other people that we choose to keep making us the people we think we are. This is scary when we consider that we allow media sources to give us information and accept it as truth or fact. The three F’s of success become the most important thing in life and we forget about the three F’s of significance.

I’m trying to go from a state where I don’t just believe in God but I know God in everything that I do. God is everything and everywhere. God is in all of us. And now I’m searching for the peace in God… this may take some time.

Peace!

Ed